I also want to
I also want to
Her gaze flickered towards a build board, other girls in the food court had been talking about it non stop. It was a billboard with Yuhi's face, regarding his next tour. Since she started dating Toh, she has been doing her best to push her thoughts back regarding Yuhi.
But, it's difficult when he is everywhere. Sumire takes out her phone and opened up their message history. It was one sided with only Yuhi's messages since she stopped replying to him. There was one from three days ago, when the news regarding the first tour location was announced.
He really is a fool, he is keeping her informed and talking normally to her. When she isn't replying to him.
Her thoughts break off when someone slides their bag on the chair next to her.
"Sorry, I'm late." Asuka apologized.
"Asuka, get this. Succhan planned a trip for her and Mashima. But, they are going to the hot springs-"
Asuka raised her eyebrow. "When did you become so bold?"
"Right? Right? It's like she is giving him permission."
"T-that's not it!" Sumire exclaimed.
"So your not going to?" Asuka asked.
"I-I guess, I was thinking that we could. Toh has been very good to me, and I really do feel bad for what happened on his birthday. I still have to give him his actual present too."
"You don't sound very confident. As somebody who is actually twenty, I have to advise you to think about it first."
"I-I do like him." Sumire exclaimed.
"Then go for it."
Futaba's gaze is dim. "Gee! Asuka, I wouldn't have called you if you were going to encourage her!"
"There is no reason to tell her not to. I mean it's her life, and she just admitted that she likes him." Asuka takes a sip of her coffee. "Besides as her friends, we are here to advise her not control her."
"But-"
"It's okay Futaba! Toh is very kind to me and he treats me well." Sumire paused recalling his kisses. R-right, he really does that very well.
Moreover, recently when he is touching her breasts. She wants his hands to touch elsewhere- Sumire shakes her head. She cannot get caught up with the flow. But she won't deny having her own thoughts and needs.
'I also want to touch him.' Since they started dating, the only one who as been doing the touching is Toh. Doesn't Toh want to her to touch him? He never mentions it. But there is no doubt that he desires and likes touching her.
"Gahhhh! That blush is suspicious."
"I do like him a lot." Sumire repeated. "As for what will happen on the trip. I really do want to give it another shot. My last boyfriend dumped me because I couldn't fulfill his needs. So, I will admit that at first I thought maybe I am only doing this because I don't want to loose him but then I thought about what happened last time he touched me. Everytime he holds my hand, kisses my forehead. I feel safe, and loved. If it's him, I don't mind giving him everything."
At those words Futaba suddenly hugged her tightly and sighed. "I don't mean to be so unreasonable, you know I am only concerned. I just want you to be happy Succhan, and if it's really like that with Mashima. Then you should go for it."
Asuka nodded. "But, please do remember to use protection. You are only sixteen, you don't want to get pregnant now."
"R-right." Sumire stammered. This conversation is very embarrassing. She stirs the contents of her milkshake. "Uh actually Asuka, have you ever-"
"I have had a few boyfriends before, so yes."
"Um, what is it actually like?"
"I thought you remembered the second time."
"I-I did but uh." Sumire fidgeted. "I just laid still, because I was too nervous the entire time. N-next time, should I do something too?"
"That depends on what Mashima wants. No, what both of you agree on. It's okay to fulfill what he wants but you also have a say in this, the same goes vice versa. From what you have told me, this entire time Mashima has been respecting your choices. Speaking of your boyfriend." Asuka paused and pointed. "Look over there."
Sumire glanced over and sure enough she spotted silver coloured hair with a group of people. Seeing the large group, she paused. She doesn't want to draw attention to herself. But, maybe she can get a bit closer?
She quickly made her decision, and walked towards the vending machine area where Toh's group was chatting nearby. She will simply walk past, and if he happens to see her that would be great. If not, then she will simply return to the table like nothing happened.
Her plan was perfect, at least she thought so. But, the minute she got a glimpse at Toh's face, images of how he kissed her resurfaced in her mind. Before she knew it, someone had bumped into her causing her to lose her footing.
Sumire closed her eyes, waiting for the impact of the fall but that is not what happened.
"Hello beautiful." Toh chuckled. "It seems you wore the wrong shoes today."
She opened her eyes only to see that Toh had his arm extended out. She landed perfectly in his arms.
"Ah-I'm still practicing, wearing heels." Sumire said nervously.
He must have seen her coming over.
"You've gotten better though." Toh complimented. "You don't have to do your best for me."
Her face dropped but Toh patted her hair. "I am very happy though."
Oh, her heart beat it's pounding loudly again. She wonders, since when did she react this way to everything he does?
"I didn't think I would see you so soon." Toh trailed off and made eye contact with Futaba and Asuka. He gave them a nod of acknowledgement. "What happened to your meeting?"
"It just ended. I have work with the company today, so I can't go to school."
Toh plays with her fingers. "Well, if that's the case. What about having lunch together?"
Her eyes brightened. "You have time?"
Toh nodded. "My business for this afternoon was cancelled and I have no lessons."
"Then we can-" Sumire's enthusiasm stopped when she felt piercing glares in her direction.
"Y-your friends?"
Toh nodded. "Do you want to--"
Sumire shakes her head and Toh nodded. "Alright." He kisses her forehead. "I'll meet you later? For lunch?"
Another nod followed by another kiss. It was only supposed to be a light kiss, but perhaps it was due to the pressure of those stares. But Sumire found herself kissing Toh deeper and deeper. Her fingers dug into his jacket. She was piercing his back so tightly, and she knew that there would be marks later on. However that didn't matter, she kept deepening their kiss and eventually Toh took control.
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